Lama eva tak menulis. boring takder, penat pon takder but then i got no ideas nak menulis. My writing more on bebelan. So i am afraid u guys would never like me blabbing. Ngumpat si Tu dan si Ni.. hehehe..
I hope tak semua org heran my where about. Bukan lari pon tapi kengkadang i think me better take a looooong break. only my beloved je yg rajin check kat sini especially my wee chatbox. thanks darling sbb rajin jawab komen kengkawan.
Apa yg i've achieved sepanjang 'kehilangan' nie. Well i got my qualification last month ( such a huge relief for me sbb tunggu hasil yg perlukan 120% usaha) Thank God walaupon tak dpt flying colors - kat sini kalau dah masuk intermediate mana ada A+, A, -A bla bla whatsoever, dia kata either lulus atau gagal je - but at least gue sudah ada qualification dr negara org putih nie dlm bidang kaunseling. Time dpt tu menyenggih je. everyday show off kat hubby. Nasib baik dia tak muak mendengar. From that moment, i realized, nothing is impossible. hopefully my theory test will go smoothly sbb dulu i wasnt prepare for my test. eventually ended up with disappointing result.
actually... I NEARLY PASSED MY TEST tapi sbb bangang punya pasal... i MISSED few points je utk LULUS. Kan proverb ada kata.. A MISS AS GOOD AS A MILE. kena kat batang idung sendiri baru padan muka! waaa... devastated nak rak. menangis mcm nak berlagu. never felt such feeling before. dulu i managed to say chill out u can try again and again. but when i got my result, i felt half of me gone. semangat hilang. disappointed sgt. i couldnt drive my car, i couldnt call my instructor to arrange my new classes and even i couldnt see my own books sbb ada perasaan mcm nak lempar je benda2 tu kat tepi. Such feelings buatkan eva rasa.. im scared so much. i am really afraid to fail again. but tak semua dlm hidup ini sentiasa gloomy dan tak bererti. semuanya menjadi lebih bermakna when i got my uk qualification.. i was overwhelmed.. i know that im not a loser, everything mesti diusahakan and i must plan wisely supaya tak buang masa dan duit. i got to do more to get a better result and now im working on it . now most of my time abiskan dgn revision. i'll never do the same mistake. mungkin i was too knackered for everything. Adjust tu dan nie. But now i dah mentally and physically prepared for anything. Thanks hubby sbb belikan all materials yg diperlukan dan tak jemu2 bagi semangat. i love him so much. no matter what happen he still believe in me. still believing that i can do it.
may be betul kata orang, time to heal... so i start from scratch again. start dr zero. memang sakit but then tanpa kesakitan kita takkan menghargai erti kejayaan. doakan semoga selepas nie eva dah boleh ada lesen sendiri insya Allah.
ok later sambung cerita. time nak tido. tomorrow ada kelas and i need to focus on it. last week nasib tak kena bambu oleh cikgu sbb i nearly kissed someone's butt ..take care guys. i know all of u semua eager nak tau my story. dont worry im okie here...catch ya later k..
ops lupa nak kata.. Ramadhan Mubarak to all... bukak pose jgn lupa eva kat sini k.. ;).
